Fridays are my Mondays

This is one of the reasons about starting a new job that blows.
I’m starting all over again as lowest man on the totem poll. Which means that all the shit rolls downhill and stops as a big, steaming, rank pile on my lap.
I get assigned to work the worst shifts that nobody else wants. I get assigned all of the menial work that everyone was too lazy to do themselves on Friday. I know it could be worse. I’m lucky to have a job. I’m lucky to have a job where I get to work inside. I’m lucky to have a job that pays so well. All things that I agree with but I aspire to be more than all of these things. I’m not satisfied. So I’m complaining. I refuse to be like my grandfather who kept his mouth shut his entire career as a pharmacist and should’ve owned that store but instead he took shit from assholes basically his entire life.
For now I’ll have to suck it up and make the best of it because I just need to make enough money to finish school but serving the public in such a degrading way as this is not my dream.

I’d love to do what my cousin does. He works on a supply boat in the gulf of Mexico. Because I could let my hair grow, cover myself in tattoos, wear shorts to work and not give a fuck. But in exchange for the freedom he works his ass off and that’s putting it lightly. There’s also potential danger, he almost lost one of his balls in a rigging accident. At the same time I want to finish school and get my degree even more. Which means I’ll probably have to work shitty, menial jobs for a few more years. Goddamnit.

If there’s something you want to say to someone just say it

Who cares if you feel stupid or awkward? Everyone feels that way. It’s human. Life’s too short to play games or hope someone will guess what you’re thinking. Don’t throw clues out there hoping that they’ll make the right moves. It’s annoying when someone thinks I’m a mind reader. The world would be better and so much wasted time would be saved if people just said what’s on their minds. Yet most people act this way. You’ll probably be surprised that people won’t think you’re an idiot because honesty is refreshing.

Oh you’re a pierced and tattooed girl, who reads books about serial killers and listens to metal? What a beautiful and unique snowflake you must be!

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